Monday, May 23, 2016

Sooooo... I Blog

Last night I had the urge to blog.  I had ideas crowding my brain and words itching my fingertips.  But my laptop was dead and I couldn't find the charger.  Not wanting to wake everyone searching for it, I went to bed instead.  Now I have a charged laptop and an empty head.  No ideas.  Zilch.  I also have a couple of talkative tweens trying to tell my about a funny cat video they saw as I try to think of something to write about.  I know the video was funny because Gigi told me so about 50 times.  Apparently it was funny.
So.  I used to blog all the time.  Did you know that?  It was a pretty decent blog too.  I even had a few followers who didn't actually know me personally.  Oh yeah.  I was big time.  But life happened and my blogging dried up. I would miss it on occasion, but my kids kept me busy enough that I rarely had time to write.  But now... I think I want to take it up again. Like for realsies.  Not as in I'm going to be profitable or anything.  That's crazy talk.  But in, I'm going to write more than three times a year. 
I don't know.  Maybe this is just my semi-quarterly rambling. We'll see.

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Perfect Storm


There comes a point in every deployment that I am so completely OVER it.  I miss Whig so much it hurts.  I want to sob and throw things and eat lots of Ben and Jerry's.

And there comes a point in every extended visit to my parents' house that I am DONE.  I'm aching to get back to my home, my routine, my regular life. I am obsessed with getting out of dodge.  Nothing makes me happy.  I just have to GO HOME.

AND there comes a point in every winter (at least in every non-southern winter) that I get the blues. Big time.  It's S.A.D. I suppose, though I've never had it diagnosed. All I know is my anti-depressants stop working.  I am lethargic, cranky, and just plain down in the dumps. All I want to do is lay in bed all day and binge-watch Doctor Who.  And cry.

As luck would have it, last week, all three of those occurred AT THE SAME TIME.  And I'm stuck at my parents' house in Utah for another two (maybe three months) until Whig gets back and can help me drive our van, a trailer full of stuff, and our four kids, home.

Kill me now.


Part of me wants to go back to Georgia now, so what if I'll be driving alone, cross-country, with four kids (including a baby and toddler)? I can break it into short hops and tire the kids out in hotel pools every day.  Then I'll be in the south, so no more S.A.D., and I'll be back in my own house, so no more itching to get out of my parents' place.  That gets rid of two out of the three problems, right?  And of course the packing and traveling will keep me plenty busy.  Then once I get home there will be unpacking, cleaning, and organizing to do too.  All those things should be enough distract me from the fact that Whig is gone, right?

Right?

Thursday, December 17, 2015

100 Questions No One Ever Asks

Here's another list of questions that I randomly found online while procrastinating doing something else. The title is, "100 Questions No One Ever Asks" which for the most part, it pretty accurate. Some of the questions though, belong on the "Questions People ALWAYS Ask" questionnaire. Oh well. Here it is anyway...

1:Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
Closed. Open closet doors creep me out.


2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
Only if I've used some of it.  Occasionally I'll take unopened bottles, but usually not. 


3:Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
In, though Whig hates having the sheet tucked in, so it's tucked in on my side, and untucked on his.


4:Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
No. Though I did steal a thing off a fryer when I worked at Burger King that said "Gaylord".  What can I say? I was 17 and I thought it was funny.  


5:Do you like to use post-it notes?
Not really.

6:Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
Sometimes.


7:Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
Bear.  It would make for a much better story.


8:Do you have freckles?
Nope.


9:Do you always smile for pictures?
Yup.


10:What is your biggest pet peeve?
People who complain aaaaaalllllllll the time.

11:Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
No. 

12:Have you ever peed in the woods?
Yes.


13:What about pooped in the woods?
Probably, though I don't recall a specific instance. 


14:Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
Yes.

15:Do you chew your pens and pencils?
I used to, but I don't so much anymore. 


16:How many people have you slept with this week?
Slept as in I'm sleeping in the same bed as someone: 2 - Hamish and Ang.


17:What size is your bed?
King


18:What is your Song of the week?
Dark Lord Funk
It's old news, I know, but I'm digging it.

19:Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
Who cares. Guys can wear whatever they want. 

20:Do you still watch cartoons?
Yes.  Gravity Falls is my favorite at the moment. 


21:Whats your least favorite movie?
I'm drawing a blank... Anything that makes me feel dark inside after watching it.

22:Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
Like I'm going to bury my gold where just anyone can dig it up.
23:What do you drink with dinner?
Water.  I'm boring like that.


24:What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
Sweet and sour sauce or honey mustard.


25:What is your favorite food?
Pie.  Pumpkin, pecan, apple, triple berry, coconut cream....  I love it all.


26:What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
Three Amigos, Princess Bride, Die Hard


27:Last person you kissed/kissed you?
Hamish.


28:Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
No.

29:Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
Ahahahaha! No.


30:When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
A couple of years ago I wrote Gigi letters pretending to be River, her Elf on the Shelf.

31:Can you change the oil on a car?
Probably.  Haven't done it in years, but probably.
32:Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
No.
33:Ever ran out of gas?
No, but I've been close.

34:Favorite kind of sandwich?
Shrimp Po Boy


35:Best thing to eat for breakfast?
Omelet with sausage, onion, tomato, mushrooms, spinach, and cheese


36:What is your usual bedtime?
11ish


37:Are you lazy?
Yes, unfortunately. 


38:When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
Once as a party. Another time as the headless horseman, complete with a real pumpkin that fit on my head.


39:What is your Chinese astrological sign?
Sheep.


40:How many languages can you speak?
English and a tiny bit of Spanish.
41:Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
No.  I like This Old House, but I don't subscribe.
42:Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
Legos! Unless you mean for stepping on, then Lincoln logs. 


43:Are you stubborn?
I can be.


44:Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
I've always loved Letterman.


45:Ever watch soap operas?
Nope.


46:Are you afraid of heights?
Yes! More than I realized. I went hiking up to some plateaus and along cliff edges this summer and yeah, I'm super afraid of heights. 


47:Do you sing in the car?
Sometimes.


48:Do you sing in the shower?
Only in my own house. 

49:Do you dance in the car?
Yes. It's epic.


50:Ever used a gun?
Yes, though not as much as I'd like.


51:Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
A couple of years ago. We all dressed up as Doctor Who characters. Whig was Matt Smith. I was River Song. Gigi was Amy Pond. Hamish was Rory. And Dale was The Silence. 

52:Do you think musicals are cheesy?
Yes, but that's half the fun.  What kind of musical would Seven Brides for Seven Brothers be if it weren't at least a little cheesy?
53: Is Christmas stressful?
Yes, but I still love it.


54:Ever eat a pierogi?
No.
55:Favorite type of fruit pie?
All the kinds.


56:Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
Teacher, ballerina, horse trainer, jockey


57:Do you believe in ghosts?
Yes.


58:Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
Yes.  I think they happen because we've dreamed about the future, then when our dreams come true we get déjà-vu.

59:Take a vitamin daily?
Not at the moment.


60:Wear slippers?
Yes, tardis ones.

61:Wear a bath robe?
Yes, a ratty old pink and white VS one.


62:What do you wear to bed?
Pjs.

63:First concert?
I don't remember his name. He was a country singer who was somewhat popular back in the late 90s.

64:Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
Target.


65:Nike or Adidas?
Adidas.


66:Cheetos Or Fritos?
Cheetos.


67:Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Sunflower seeds


68:Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
Nope.

69:Ever take dance lessons?
Yes, ballet when i was a kid.  I really want to learn how to swing dance now.

70:Is there a profession you picture your spouse doing after he retires? (I changed this one to be applicable to me)
Professional wedding guest.

71:Can you curl your tongue?
yes
72:Ever won a spelling bee?
no


73:Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
Yes.


74:Own any record albums?
Yes, several. David Bowie, The Longines Symphonette, random stuff.


75:Own a record player?
Yup.


76: Regularly burn incense?
No, I hate incense.


77:Ever been in love?
Of course.

78:Who would you like to see in concert?
The Cure, Ben Folds (again), Eisley (again), Brian Setzer...

79:What was the last concert you saw?
Eisley, I think.


80:Hot tea or cold tea?
Hot honey chamomile tea.


81:Tea or coffee?
Tea. Herbal.


82:Sugar or snickerdoodles?
Snickerdoodles. 


83:Can you swim well?
I get by.


84:Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
Yes


85:Are you patient?
Yes, though not as much as I'd like.


86:DJ or band, at a wedding?
Band.


87:Ever won a contest?
Yes. One writing contest and several art ones.  All as a kid or teenager.


88:Ever have plastic surgery?
No.


89:Which are better black or green olives?
Black.


90:Can you knit or crochet?
No, though I've always wanted to learn how.


91:Best room for a fireplace?
Living room.


92:Do you want to get married?
Again?  Yes, if Whig died I would want to get married again eventually.

93:If married, how long have you been married?
14 years this month.


94:Who was your HS crush?
Adam. He was such a hunk.


95:Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
No. I do sulk though. I'm not proud of that.


96:Do you have kids?
No one asks this? Seriously?
And yes, I have four.

97:Do you want kids?
More kids? Yes, please!


98:What's your favorite color?
Blue.
99:Do you miss anyone right now?
Whig.

100: Who are you going to tag?
No one. I don't tag.

Sunday, October 11, 2015

Ode to Naps

Oh my sleeping babes
Still, quiet, breathing deeply
I do love my naps

Thursday, October 8, 2015

50 Questions

There's this list out there called, "50 Questions that Will Free Your Mind" that I thought I'd give a try.  Honestly, I wasn't all that impressed.  My mind is definitely no more free than when I started.  Oh well.  Here are my answers anyway.
  1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? 26. Or 45. Depending on the day. 
  2. Which is worse, failing or never trying? Never trying. 
  3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? Laziness, fear. 
  4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? Probably, but I hope not. 
  5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? Make it more free from government interference. 
  6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich? Hiking guide, if that's a thing. Being paid go hiking in beautiful locations. 
  7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?  Yes and no.  I am doing what I believe in, but I'm not doing it as well as I'd like. 
  8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?  I would do more, faster. I'd want to get it all in before I died. 
  9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?  83%
  10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? Right things. 
  11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do?  Get really quiet and uncomfortable. Lose a lot of respect for these people. Stand up for my friend if I don't wuss out. 
  12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?  God loves you. Look to Him.
  13. Would you break the law to save a loved one?  Yes. 
  14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?  Yes, as my tastes change. 
  15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?  Dream. 
  16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?  Because I'm not everyone. I'm me. 
  17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?  What’s holding you back?  Start a new business. Fear and laziness. 
  18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? Resentment toward some people. 
  19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why? Ecuador. It's beautiful and inexpensive. 
  20. Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?  No. 
  21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?  Joyful simpleton. Joy is the best. 
  22. Why are you, you?  Because I said so. 
  23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? No. I'm a terrible, lazy, antisocial friend. I'm lucky to have much better friends than I am myself. 
  24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?  Moving. You can always reconnect with the nearby friend, but you can't make someone move back. 
  25. What are you most grateful for?  Redemption. 
  26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones? Yuck, I don't know. Both feel like they'd be equally horrible. 
  27. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first? Yes. You just feel it. 
  28. Has your greatest fear ever come true?  No. My children have never been lost or kidnapped.
  29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now?  Yes, I remember.  I does matter now, because that was an extremely difficult time for me.  I made choices that changed my life and myself.
  30. What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special? Riding on a big inner tube in the snow, as it was pulled behind a truck.  I lived in Nevada at the time and snow was rare.  It was exciting and new and just so darn fun.
  31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?  Dancing with Whig at Brandi and Marianne's wedding.  Or hiking up the canyon in Capitol Reef.
  32. If not now, then when?  Tuesday at 3:42 pm
  33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?  Relationships, time, energy, money...so many things to lose.  But much to gain as well.  And always playing it safe makes for a dull existence.
  34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever? Not that I recall.
  35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?   Religions that truly support love rarely cause war.  Political ideologies, on the other hand...
  36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?  In some cases, yes, it's super obvious.  In others, you have to follow the spirit.
  37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?  Nope.
  38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?  More work that I enjoy.
  39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?  Oh my, yes.  Wake up, get myself and little kids dressed. Eat breakfast, feed Ang and put him down for a nap, homeschool Dale while keeping Hamish from jumping on me, make calls/pay bill/etc, lunch, feed Ang, put Hamish down for a nap, nurse Ang and put him down for a nap, read or nap if possible, make dinner, eat, feed Ang... and on and on and on...
  40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?  The last time I started a business
  41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?  Whig, if it were possible.  My siblings, if not.  Mostly I'd just be with my children though.
  42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?  No.  Though it would be fun to be those things for a while, just to see what it's like.
  43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?  Everyone's alive, but some people are just kinda phoning life in.  They let life take them where it may, they don't set the course.  They don't figure out what they REALLY want and go for it.
  44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?  When you know in your heart that it's the right path.
  45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? It's how most of us were raised.  We're taught from a young age that mistakes are bad. 
  46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?  Wear pajamas all the time.
  47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?  Beats me. Maybe when Ang was born.
  48. What do you love?  Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?  I love running a business, hiking, doing yoga, napping, reading, drawing...  I have been expressing my love of napping lately.  By napping.  And I've been expressing my love of reading by listening to audiobooks.  But other than that, I've been sadly neglecting the other loves in my life. 
  49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that?  Doubtful.  I will probably remember the week before last, since I had a wonderful few days with Whig before he deployed.  It was also the weekend of my best friend's wedding, so I'll totally remember that.  But since then nothing all that memorable has happened.
  50. Decisions are being made right now.  The question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you? Both, because that's kind of how life works. But there definitely are things I can do differently that I'm not, because I'm tired and frazzled, trying to wrangle Hamish and Ang.   But that's hardly an excuse.  People have accomplished great things while wrangling babies and toddlers, so why can't I?  Quick! To the bat fax!
  51.  (I don't know what made me think of that quote.  It's late.  My mind is weird when it's late.  Twenty gold stars if you know where that line comes from without googling it.)

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

101 Achievements

 I read somewhere on the interwebs about writing down 101 things that you have achieved in your life so far. Since writing lists in pretty much my favorite thing ever, I decided to give it a go.  Some of my "achievements" are more "things I've crossed off my bucket list".  And I'm sure some things that are significant to me would not even rate a second thought to you, and vice versa.  But that's one of the great things about this list -it's my personal achievements, the things that were challenging or significant to me.  You should most definitely go do the same for yourself. It's a fun and uplifting exercise.

101 Things I Have Achieved in My Life (in more or less chronological order)

I...
  1.  Learned all of those things you learn how to do as a child (sit up, crawl, walk, speak, feed myself, get dressed, etc) that as adults we kind of take for granted, but are really quite remarkable if you think about it.
  2. Was baptized, received the Holy Ghost, and was confirmed a member of the Mormon church
  3. Won awards in several local and state art contests
  4. Helped raise four calves
  5. Started my first business at age ten -I sold Laffy Taffy and baseball cards on the bus
  6. Used the money to buy a mustang (horse, not car)
  7. Once leaped off a galloping horse (he spooked)
  8. Got back on afterward, like a boss. (ok, there may have been some blubbering involved)
  9. Jumped off a two story building onto a trampoline
  10.  Played a song on the piano during sacrament meeting.  Didn't die. (I have an insane public piano-playing phobia)
  11. Helped found "The Guapas Chicas", an epic group my friends and I invented. We sang covers and original songs very badly and recorded them on a cassette tape. If you don't know what a cassette tape is, go ask your parents.
  12. Performed in a local church musical (Saturday's Warriors)
  13. Wrote and directed two extremely simple, super short plays for Young Women's activities
  14. Went to Mardi Gras
  15. Won $50 in a writing contest 
  16. Earned my Young Womanhood Recognition award
  17. Was president of my Seminary class
  18. Member of the National Honors Society and National Art Honors Society in High School
  19. Graduated high school
  20. Graduated seminary
  21. Attended BYU 
  22. Hid an unauthorized time capsule somewhere in the Eyring Science Center (it might still be there)
  23. Helped take down a bagel thief
  24. Lived in Mexico for two months
  25. Worked 4 part-time jobs to pay for the Mexico trip
  26. Went snorkeling
  27. Received my temple ordinances 
  28. Married Whig in the temple
  29. Graduated college
  30. Had a baby (That first one was terrifying! I did not know what the heck I was doing.)
  31. Lived on my own with a toddler and newborn for a year (well, the newborn was only around part of the year) while Whig was in South Korea
  32. Went to Korea for two weeks
  33. Gave birth to Gigi while Whig was gone
  34. Went on a cruise to the Bahamas
  35. Ate escargot (it's not too bad as long as you don't think about what you're eating)
  36. Played with a dolphin
  37. Went horseback riding on the beach
  38. Rode a horse bareback in the ocean
  39. Went parasailing
  40. Drove a segway
  41. Became certified to teach yoga
  42. Taught yoga for several years
  43. Patented an idea  
  44. Trademarked a name 
  45. Started a business in my basement
  46. Built a website (with the help of a web building site)
  47. Spoke for several minutes on live TV without throwing up on the hostess' shoes (I have an insane public speaking phobia)
  48. Designed a product that was an editor's pick in Better Homes and Gardens, and in the running to be in Real Simple magazine's "30 Gifts Under $30"
  49. Moved my business to a warehouse
  50. Oversaw a dozen employees
  51. Had a troll on my blog. Much fun was had.
  52. Was a witness in a small claims case. The good guy won. 
  53. Sold my business, even though it was heartbreaking, because it was the right choice
  54. Survived a horrible lawsuit 
  55. Learned to forgive (am still learning to forgive)
  56. Took Dale and Gigi out of school to homeschool them.  That was scary.
  57. Wrote a fairly popular series of articles on 72 hour kits
  58. Taught several preparedness classes that were lined up because people liked previous prepping classes I had taught.  So that was nice. 
  59. Compiled a cookbook of family recipes
  60. Painted several paintings for friends
  61. Made several quilled creations for family
  62. Raised chickens and ducks
  63. Completed two EHOPD Challenges
  64. Hosted Christmas dinner at my house for several families
  65. Ate alligator (Not a fan -too fishy.)
  66. Gave birth at home
  67. Gave birth naturally
  68. Have four awesome kids 
  69. Put Gigi in school this year even though it was hard to let go
  70. Am in the process of starting another business
  71. Am still happily married after almost 14 years
(This is where the chronological part ends)

I have...
72.  Lived in 8 different states in U.S. (Missouri, Texas, Nevada, Mississippi, Utah, California, Maryland, Georgia)
73. Swum in the Pacific and Atlantic Oceans and the Gulf of Mexico
74. Survived 2 (going on 3) of Whig's deployments to Afghanistan and Iraq
75. Potty trained 2 (going on 3) kids
76. Taught primary for about 7 of the last 13 years
77. Bought three homes, sold two
78. Been a landlord twice
78. Never wrecked a car (knock on wood)
79. Never had a speeding ticket (double knock on wood)
80. Read the entire Book of Mormon more than once (not sure on the exact number)
81. Read over 50 books on my "Book-et List"

I know how to...
82. Drive a stick shift
83. Ride a bike
84. Ride a horse
85. Rollerblade
86. Swim
87. Cook
88. Bake
89. Grow a garden
90. Mend clothes
91. Sew on a button
92. Play 3 hymns on the piano well enough to play in church
93. Do taxes (using turbotax, but still)
94. Change a wriggly, screaming toddler's diaper
95. Care for an infant
96. Do a front flip on the trampoline (at least I used to be able to)
97. Speak terrible, extremely limited Spanish
98. Recite the 13 Articles of Faith from memory
99. Do crane and wheel poses (yoga)
100. Recognize when I'm having an anxiety attack or bout of depression, and have learned coping mechanisms for both
101. Be a responsible adult

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

Reading Challenge Update - February and March

As you know, I had my baby the beginning of February, so I wasn't in the right mental state to do much heavy reading.  Instead I read the Harry Potter series while I was nursing.  


Sure, none of them were on my list, but they're easy, entertaining, not too heavy (except maybe the last book, but even that one's not that bad) -perfect for those sleepless, foggy-brained weeks of newborn parenthood.  And now that I'm starting too feel more like a normal person again I'm excited get working on my list.
Next up, - Gift from the Sea Classics for Adults.



Happy Reading!